days that pass. art? - Saturday, November 11, 2006

there are days that pass that i look back & wonder what i really wanna be, what i really want to be made of.

yeah, i wanna prove the world wrong but it seems that would have to start at home.

i don't blame my parents at all for not being enthu about having my sights on that design course, or any other design course that revolves around me doing it as a full-time thing. don't get it wrong, they've always been sorta supportive of my hobby for sketching & provided me with the freedom to draw whatever i pleased with whatever i needed. but it's just..now everything's different, i mean, it's my future i'm talking about right?

my mom wants me to give communications & media management a thought. & i have. & my dad wants me to go into leisure & resort. '' an increasingly popular & expanding industry he says'' with all the casino crap coming about. ok, casino. if i do work in a casino, i'd have to one way or another gamble.. which is a major WTF since i'm soo against gambling. what is that you say? don't gamble with any money? ooh get a life, that aint gonna be possible.

so leisure and resort management is definitely out.

now.. communications and media management.

it doesn't sound too bad & she believes i can do it since i've had a hand in it before & mom jokingly said "everyone would listen to (me) cos (i'm) so fierce!'' . it is a stable job compared to pursuing my animation dreams. besides, i know i'm not as good in sketching as everyone thinks i am.

yar yar, i'm suppose to follow my dreams and do what i want. but please, this is THE world we're living in. money talks & rocks a heck load of people's socks. but not creativity. so i'm just trying to be realistic but not land myself with a 9-5 job in the office.

& what happened to the rebellious teen whose gonna pierce her ears for the 3rd and 4th time just to throw my mom in a fit?

well, she knows she's gonna grow out of this whole teen rebellion thing well after 18. she's gonna have to make a decision eventually & just hope is that she makes a good one.